leap year's girl

juz a quick one

2009-07-06T05:34:00.000-07:00

i'm really bored.. nt becuz i hav nothing to do.. it's bcoz i hav lots of things to do.. weirdo huh? i duno why.. i dun hav dat urge to finish the work.. u can say dat i'm a procrastinator.. i keep on talking to myself.. nt bcoz i'm crazy.. i mean.. i encourage myself.. i talk to myself so dat i can change.. i urge myself.. i praise myself when i did sth gd.. bt.. dat's juz nt enough.. i duno why.. it'll juz b a while.. then i'll go back to my ownself again.. i hav lots of frens.. bt honestly speaking.. those who really knw me well, only a few.. five fingers are enough to count.. i hav this very gd fren.. i call him my psychologist.. why? u shld knw wad a psychologist is, rite? wad they do n stuffs.. he is juz like one for me.. though we're miles apart.. bt i dun think it is a problem to our frenship.. we talk to each other almost every nite.. he understands wad i;m goin thru.. i'm very relieved about dat.. he went thru lots of things.. much more than wad i hav went thru.. though he's only older than me by a yr, bt he has alrd went thru a lot.. coz of the environment, i think.. bt he's tough.. dat's why i said he's my psychologist..

tomoro schl start.. actually it started a week ago.. bt i was under LOA.. lots of things waitin for me to face n solve.. mybe aft wad hav happened had made me lose courage in wadeva way.. bt luckily, he's there.. dun b mistaken.. he's nt my bf.. we're only very close.. dat's all.. it may b a crap for u.. bt who cares? i dun care.. n.. who said dat we cant hav bestfren of opp sex? i hav one.. n i'm very proud if it.. lots of things waitin for me.. i know.. i know this path will b very long n tiring.. i knw i will b very weary.. i knw i may wana giv up half way.. i knw it's gona b tough.. i knw it's gona b stressful.. bt.. as long as.. i believe in myself.. i believe in him.. i believe in everything i do.. i knw i can cope with it..

all those things dat has happened had alrd happened.. juz take it as experiences.. no matter it's a gd one or bad one.. if it's a gd one, then take it as a gd memories to b remembered.. if it's a bad one, juz take it as a learning experience.. as long as i always remember, i'm considered lucky.. nothing is impossible.. let's 4gt e past.. n start a new.. start a fresh..

i really envy some parents who are very understanding of their children.. nt dat my parents are nt understanding.. no.. they are.. bt.. some parents, if their child is retain in schl, meaning cannot go to e next level, they r understanding enough to juz let it go.. although very few parents do dat.. bt at least there are some like dat.. as for my parent's case, they are understanding.. even if u gt a bad result, as long as u still can cope, u can make it to e next level, they're ok.. even if u're nt a top student.. as long as u make it to another level.. they are hepi.. bt they dun allow any retains.. once u're retained, means u hav failed.. as simple as dat.. n bcoz of dat, i hav neva been retained be4.. bt also bcoz of dat, i hav neva been a top student in my schl..

gotta go... need to do hw.. bye..

magnet to problems

2009-06-05T22:27:00.000-07:00

yeah.. i'm like a magnet to problems.. i wanted to juz 4get about the existence of my blog..
bt.. i somehow need it to pour all my emotions in..
notice dat i didnt post for 2 mnths.. i wanted to..
a lot.. i wanted to juz pour all my emotions in.. lot of things happened..

i went to the temple.. pray.. n then.. i draw a lot..
how do i draw?? i juz shake the sticks in the container n see which one came out 1st, then akd the god whether dat's really e slot, if it is, then it is..
if it's not, u hav to shake it again..
so i gt this slot 37. i went to check the book n read about it..
interpretation: bad
wun explain much of it.. then my mum went to buy sime stuffs near the temple..
i found a place to sit down.. then an old lady sat beside me said this "did u come to pray?"
i say yes.. then she carries on by asking whether i had drawn a slot.. of corz i said yes..
then she askd me wad slot number and i told her.. she explain more to e detailed..
relly very amazing.. it matches my problems so much!!
then she askd me when was i born.. n i told her e detail.. she said all these will end on june..
aft june everything will b fine.. let's hope so.. i really hope it is gona b true..
i really had faced a lot during e first half of e year.. i wun b able to cope with it if my other half of e yr is gona b tough again..
juz let me hav a peaceful mind n prepare for my o lvl ba..
let's start a fresh!!

-blessed me-

so long neva post anything at all..

2009-04-02T07:41:00.000-07:00

yeah.. tell u a secret.. i did open my blog..
bt i juz didnt update.. dun feel like updating..
coz.. too many things are happening now..

made my mood change here n ther.. nt mood swing, of course..
it changed in a daily basis.. nt in a day change a lot of times..
yeah.. there was this time.. when my feeling is exactly like my prev post..
e one dat i said i broken down.. this time round worse..
i cried in e class.. make many of my frens know dat i was crying..
luckily though, dat was during a math lesson.. at least nt e whole class was there..

so.. yeah..

n then there was this time.. when i feel like juz end everything..
seriously.. juz end everything.. bt.. in e end.. sb come n counsel me..
who are in e same plight as me.. she felt wad i felt.. n experienced wad i experienced..
thnx to her.. i felt so much relieved.. dat e thought of ending evrything is gone..
now u know how serious my condition was??
hell yeah.. i think..

there was this time.. when i wana juz escape from everything.. including schl..
dun feel like goin to schl.. juz feel like skiping it.. had a gd rest..
bt i cant afford to do dat.. i'll miss a lot of things if i absent even juz 4 1 day..

n so.. i face another problem recently..
cant tell u wad.. coz.. i'm keeping it from my another frens..
nt mei, of corz.. sb else.. can juz tell u dat..
she misunderstands me.. dat's all..

u tell me how.. tell me wad to do.. i'm really facing lots of stuffs during this whole month..
tell me wad to do..

really duno

2009-03-10T07:49:00.000-07:00

starting of e day was ok.. during MT class everything was per normal..
maybe bcoz i was surrounded by lots of laughter..
this yr's MT class is e best MT clas..
although sometimes it's boring, bt bcoz of e sec 5, everything seemed so interesting..
it didnt make me thing of other things else..

e problem started since ystrdy..
yeah.. had some private matters..
anyway, i was tired.. n get angry n irritated very easily..
yeah.. dat's e main thing..
aft MT class, everything seemed so different..
had history lesson.. mrs. peh didnt come.. so havin free period..
did homework.. then. recess..
did eat.. bt also thinking.. was quiet all e time...
mei commented "u're weird 2dae. juz like wad happened to vivi last time round"
sorry mei, to have made u guys worried..
yeah.. really.. i know.. aft dat.. i knw i cant hold it anymore..
i dun wana cry in front of them..
i told them i'm goin upstairs to e hall 1st..
vivian came along.. accompanying me..
goin up e stairs, vivian asked wad happened.. n threaten me to say..
i really cant hold it any longer..
i manage 2 say 4 words before i burst into tears..
dat is "i want to cry"
didnt go into e hall yet.. how to go in when i'm in tears??
cried for a while outside e hall..
luckily nobody noticed..
bell rang..
hurriedly wipe my tears.. n go in..
sitting down, do lots of thinking..
then..
cry again..
bt i didnt let my tears rolled down..
i juz sat down.. staring onto e floor..
can feel that my eyes were wet..
n became blur..
bt still.. e tears managed to go back in..
yeah..
aft dat.. when we all goin back to classroom..
to my surprised, sb called me..
familiar yet felt so strange..
yeah.. the voice of my kor.. lol..
duno whether bcoz i was feeling so down dat his voice seemed so differrent or wad..
sorry kor.. didnt really reply u..
i was really very down..
when walk up e stairs, suddenly think of all my frens
who will b worrying about me..
i cried again.. of corz, again, without their notice..

e math class was very attentive.. bt..
i really hav no mood.. come in left, go out by right ear..

chemistry class even worse..
sorry cher..
i couldnt concentrate at all..
rather u went thru my gifted programme booklet..

fnn lesson was stil ok..
went into comp lab..
didnt think too much.. although there were cases where i thought of it.. bt nt so much..

eng lesson, mrs.tay didnt come again..
she isnt feeling well..
we are taken by mrs. eng again..

aft schl went to eat at subway..
aft dat went home.. nt my new house..
currently staying in vivian's place 4 some reasons..
she said wana go check up.. in e end, went to thomson..
reached there, e personnel said it was alrd closed..
took bus to bishan..
finding gift for my sister's engagement party..
aft dat.. she commented..
"wad will make u juz smile a bit??"
i really duno.. she suggested me to eat ice cream..
yeah.. listened to her suggestion n we went to swensens..
ate sth light.. then here come e desert!!
ate ice cream..
aft dat took bus home..
started to feel better..
back to normal again..
bt dat's only for today..
wad bout tomoro??
can i guarantee dat everything will b like normal???

my life is kinda messy nowadays...
i duno how to put it..
bt.. my close frens know is enough...
let's call it a day..
bye..

movin house...

2009-03-07T18:46:00.000-08:00

yeah... it's e fifth time dat i moved house..
lol.. 1st time when i was 4 yrs old in indonesia..
we moved to a bigger house dat can fit my whole family inside..
dat was e best part.. coz i only need to bring myself n my doll to e new house..
i missed dat house.. it was really huge.. n hav a very nice scenery on e 3rd floor..
we normally had bbq every big occasion like xmas eve, new yr celebration, n stuffs..
i'll take a picture of it when i went back there ltr..
bt i duno when is dat goin to happen..
7 yrs ltr, when i was 12, we moved to batam, another part of indonesia..
i remember i didnt help out in anything.. i only carry my own back pack n my real rabbit, yeah.. he could (past tense) jump here n there. he rest in peace 2 yrs ago.
3 yrs later, when i was 15 i move to sgp.. notice dat i use I instead of we??
coz i was e only one move to sgp to further my studies.. dat was still ok..
coz i only brought my own things there.. only clothes, i think..
e rest i dun need to bring.. u can expect me to bring my furniture here, rite??
dat wasnt so bad.. 2 full yrs ltr, which is now..
i'm movin frm sengkang to hougang..
this is so far e worst part.. aft 2 full yrs studying here, i hav bunch of txtbks n stuffs...
especially my reading books.. u know.. e fiction n non-fiction books..
yeah.. damn heavy.. bt my i think lena's has e most heavier books ba..
hahas... she has spent 7 yrs here le...
haha.. k la.. i need to continue to do the-movin-house stuffs liao..
byee... c ya...

weird!!

2009-03-05T06:50:00.000-08:00

i duno wad's e problem with e ppl around me..
nowadays they seemed so different!!
either they became moody, or get irritated or angry very easily..
i'm seriuos.. if u really wana me to list them out.. omg..
kor, dun wory.. i'm nt saying u moody.. bt it's my other frens..
i really duno why... am i being over-sensitive??
bt.. u knw wad.. normally my instinct is very reliable..
this yr is damn weird...
nadz.. updated.. liao...

gt a lot of things happening n my life..
dun wish to list them out one by one..
in general.. i lost things.. n also spent a lot of money...
nt only e fee for o level subjects..
a lot spent on other aspects as well..

health deteriorating.. as usual...
both physically n mentally tired..
i really wana spend as much time as i can with my family..
i duno.. i need love.. i need them to shower me with their love..
i barely feel it now.. as we mostly only talk through phone..
i miss them.. so much..
unless i can find sb dat can love me here..
as in.. really love me like my parents do..
although nobody cpould possibly replace both my parents..
bt at least.. there's sb can shower me with the love..

oopps.. i need to b more alert!!

2009-02-23T05:19:00.000-08:00

hahas..
sorry, ko!! i shouldnt hav jumped into conclusion like dat..
now i know it's ur charecteristic, will b extra careful e next time..
hahas.. bt i really dun like to see u change ur mood in such a short time..

hmm..
2dae gt back my e math test paper..
when they were all doin e correction, i was sitting down there listen to vivi talking and stare at the white board without moving my pen too much..
u know why?? bcoz i dun hav any correction to make!!
nt becoz i gt full mark.. i failed by 1 1/2 mark.. e reason why i dun hav to make correction is becoz all e mistakes were careless mistakeS!!
careless mistakes never fail to 'visit' me in every of my test paper..
damn it.. u know wad careless mistakes i made??
for writing X rather than Z
for writing e correct ans in my working but different in my conclusion (wad a stupidest mistakes??)
for nt writing the unit
omg!!!
i'm nt only careless in my study..
bt also in my life..
it's sad to b parts of my body, u know..
hahas.. u'll know why if u're very close to me..
trip, fell, cuts, sprained, gastric, infection wad else hav i nt encounter??
hahas.. i need ppl to take care of me.. really..
luckily i hav my frens..
if nt, i duno la..
hahas.. now i know why my parents were very worried of me when i came here 4 e 1st few mnths..
they even asked me to go back once in 2 weeks..
actually i also wan la..
hahas..

i'm goin crazy soon..
i wonder why the booster session with adam khoo workshop is still so long..
i need them now!!!
enough about 2dae.. i hav a pile of hw waiting for me on my desk..

-careless, shoo!!!-

pissed of at 1st.. hepi in e end..

2009-02-06T05:33:00.000-08:00

nothing special had happened in e morning earlier..
juz right aft recess.. damn it..
YOU! u better b reading this now!!
u shld know who u are if u read this..
u.. i duno wad e hell wrong is with u..
ur mood swing is worse than a gurl!
u were fine e day be4.. can joke very happily..
bt then 2dae.. i think u ate e wrong medicine, rite??
or u havnt eat ur medicine at all??
suddenly become so cold..
wad e.. i was being nice to ask u wad had happened..
bt u juz ignore it like dat..
fine.. juz take it as i was being too nosy..
bt then aft a while, aft schl..
u changed again.. ask me whether i angry with u..
yes.. i was angry with u.. and i "am still" angry with and "will still" angry with u..
juz wana let u feel wad it is like to b ignored..
i hate dat feeling, u know!
i thought dat we can b so called gd fren..
u even regard me as ur sis..
bt.. ugh.. u better b reading this now..
n scram as far as possible when u see me..
or i'll treat u very coldly.. till u can take it..
i'm nt tryin 2 b very mean.. u wun know how i felt..

let's drop e subject..
aft schl, i went to aunt ani's house with my fren..
also left our bags n all dat in her house..
we havin cross country 2dae..
glad dat i dun need to run..
hahas.. i was on duty..
bcoz i'm a certified first aider!!
hahas.. i was e overall in charge..
at 1st i thought.. waa...
so far dun hav any casualties..
a good sign.. bt then..
juz a minute aft i thought of dat, omg..
a lot of them fainting, dizzy, cant breath properly n stuffs..
suddenly become very busy n as well as stressful..
luckily e rest of e 1st aiders are very cooperative..
they dun need me to worry about other station..
i can really let them do everything by themselves..
i juz concentrate on treating e casualty in e 1st aid base..
we dun hav enuff 1st aiders..
luckily our schl prepared ambulance be4 hand..
e nurses also came down to help us..
there was 1 casualty who was very serious..
until we need to use stretcher to carry him..
he couldnt walk.. n feel like sleeping..
we cant let him fall asleep..
bad, right?
hahas.. bt we really cant do dat..
so we keep on talking to him.. distract him..
bt in e end, he still fell sleep..
lol.. bt e nurses said.. it's ok alrd.. can let him rest ler..
he is more stabilised now.. so we let it be..

aft e whole thing, here come e giving prize presentation..
iall e 1st aiders were allowed to go 2 their own house 4 e cheering part..
i was also e song leader.. so i sat in e front..
aft e cheer, when giving out e prize, suddenly ms.chua pulled me out n ask me to help to giv out e prise..
as in, i'm nt e one who giv it to e winners la.. bt i passed it to 1 tcr, then e tcr pass it 2 e GOH or VIP, then they giv out lo..
e cheering competition..
YEAH!! VINSON won!!!! hahas..
last yr EVEREST won e cheering part..
this year, vinson won e cheering part as well as e CHAMPION house for cross country..
vinson had won 3 yrs in a row.. or more... i think 3 la..
or i 4gt.. hahas.. yeah!! vinson neva failed to imprss all e tcr!
lol.. we nt only gd in sport, bt also in cheering!! hahas..
all those shouting of cheerings trhough ourlungs, isnt wasted at all..
hahas... i kinda lost my voice aft e cheering.. my throat very painful..
bt now is ok alrd.. hahas.. luckily..

so, overall..
i had learnt to take such a big responsibility 2dae..
being an overall in charge isnt easy, i hav 2 admit dat..
bt.. when we move as a team.. all those are nothing..
thnx to my helpful, reliable n considerate juniors..
i dun hav to worry too much.. they are very cooperative..
without e help of them, i think i will b very stressed ba! hahas..
special thnx to: ms.lee, thank u 4 trusting me n put me in charge of such a big responsibility..
Nabil, Tisha, Marissa, Audrey, Liling, Hazwan, Sofeah, Nadzirah, Haikal and last bt nt least, Aini..
some of them are my juniors.. Nadzirah is same level as me.. Haikal is our senior..
thnx to them.. really..

gtg now.. overall, 2dae nt dat bad though.. :D

awesome!!!

2009-01-22T04:20:00.000-08:00

wow... it was like "last year" since i update my blog..
hahas... mei.. i update liao.. haha.. i dun think u check my blog nowadays liao.. haha..
let's see when u realise it, k...
hmm...
lots of thoughts n feelings wana throw it out..
bt.. nt now.. i need time to settle down..
i duno wad on earth am i doin..
keep on settling down...
from start of 2009..
havnt settled enuff.. haha...
honestly speaking.. it was a very tiring for e start of e year..
i duno... i found dat i have lots of things to catch up..
is it becoz i had slow down my pace somehow??
i duno.. i'm really tired.. lots of camps.. actually only 2 camps..
bt it's all within 2 weeks.. so very tiring..
have lots of sleepless nites.. woke up late.. i duno wad's goin on with me recently..
bt it's terrible.. i read my horoscope.. n it says dat everything will b fine..
everything will b goin quite smoothly this year..
but why is it dat i felt e opposite??
nt really e opposite.. everything did go on smoothly.. too smooth unitl i felt very hard catching up??
wad a lame excuse.. my parents bringing me on a 4 days 3 nitex cruise.. from 25-28..
i hoped dat i really can relax myself during dat 4D3N..

for this 2009, i know it wouldnt b an easy route for me..
o'lvl this year.. need to strive hard.. to achieve my commitments..
bt i'm afraid dat i'll giv up half way.. i'm finding it more n more tougher each day..
how i wish candice, leroy n pamela is still there..

-confused-

in batam..

2008-11-26T06:01:00.000-08:00

1st time blogging in batam...
nt very comfortable..
coz e keypad..
haha
nt used to it..
keep on typo error..

finally..
back in batam..
happy..
of corz..
bt become very lazy liao..
i brought back my books n hw..
bt havnt touch it till now..
hav been playin n relaxing...
haha..

finally..
i found my long lost fren..
all e misunderstanding btwn us has been solved..
i lost contact of him is bcoz he lost his handphone..
so he couldnt contact me to tell me his new number..
he also moved to a new environment..
dat's why when i tried to call to his house i couldnt reach..
at 1st i thought he didnt want a fren like me anymore..
bt then..
haha.. i think too much ba..
he still as frenly as before..
he still treat me as fren la..
quite happy.. at last..
i found him..
i found back a "brother"
i found back a pair of ear to hear my complaints
i found back a fren..
i found back a mirror..
he is really very kind..
very dote on me as well..
dote as in he wun complaint even if i'm rude to him..
he has gt a gf.. so u dun think too much a..
haha..
yeah... this time round come back, really gt a very big "income"
haha...

go out with frens... n all..
having fun so far..
e only thing i dun like is..
e transportation..
need to wait for sb to come n pick me up..
haiz... wana learn how to drive..
haha..
bt then nt now ba.. wait wait n wait..

hmm...
nothin more to say liao..
i waitin them (my frens) to stop playin audition..
coz i wana go home a..
k la..
nothin more to update..
must miss me horh...
bubuai....

juz back from e camp!!

2008-11-07T03:44:00.000-08:00

yeah!! juz had my 4 days 3 nites camp..
this camp quite special..
coz.. this is e 1st time i attend red cross camp as a NCO!!
last few times, i attended it as a cadet..
bt this time round, we, e seniors who are e one who organise e camp..

1st day of camp..
arrived in schl in e morning..
realise dat i 4gt 2 bring my full u along..
hurriedly call mei.. ask whether she can help me take my full u 2 e schl since she is coming e schl 4 remedial also..
luckily she can make it.. thnx 2 her siax..
aft dat.. vivian help me buy poncho..
bt then mei met vivian otw.. so they bought it together..
n mc.d breakfast 4 me..
so sweet of them.. :))
af meeting with them, i get excuse from e chairman 2 go 4 my remedial as well..
this camp very busy..
coz need 2 go for lesson in e morning, then join them back aft e lesson..
so.. aft lesson, went to join them..
hav outdoor cooking 4 lunch..
although nt really ful.. bt.. can la.. haha..
then.. nothing much..
at night we hav catered food 4 dinner..
aft dat we hav scavangent hunt.. honestly..
it was nt well organised.. bt.. i knew e game ic tried her best..
she was doing it all herself..
so.. i believed e cadets understand that..
then we had our supper.. the cadets all praised e f&b ICs 4 e milo..
the milo was great!! hahas.. gd job, f&b IC!!
aft dat.. e cadets went to bath n had their lights out at 12..
we, e NCOs would nt sleep earlier than e cadets..
when they lights out, we went to bath.. then, we had our lights out at 1.30..

2nd day, woke up early in e morning, had PT..
then had our breakfast.. again.. e f&b never fails to surprise us with their yummy breakfast!! haha.. then i didnt go 4 e lesson.. i was excuse.. bcoz i need to go 4 trekking with them..
only 5 NCOs attended it.. e rest of e NCOs hav lesson.. cant excuse so many of them..
bt then 3 of our seniors joined us.. so.. manpower doesnt really is e problem..
aft dat..
yeah!!! we set off 4 e trekking!!
hahas..
it was a 7km++ walk in e mc. Ritchie..
along e way.. of corz.. muddy.. slippery.. a lot of stones.. high slope.. n all that..
bt.. Red x cadets all very strong!!! they persevere all e way!! yeah!!
they are e strongest cadets ever!!
hahas...
along e way.. i encouraged them to move on n dun giv up..
kept on telling them that they had done a great job n all stuffs..
then when we came back.. 1st thing we did is TO HAV OUR LUNCH!!! haha..
afr lunch, the cadets were given time to wash up n gather at e canteen..
as 4 me, i lazy la.. very tired.. so i juz laid down on e canteen bench n wait 4 thei return..
aft dat.. nothing special.. our dinner, we had outdoor cooking competition!!
haha.. e can food that e cadets brought.. alll very yummy one..
then.. so sweet of e cadets.. actually spare us, e NCOs their food..
we hav our own food as well.. they wana us to taste their food..
aft dat.. as usual.. nothing special as well.. everything going on as usual..
then had our supper.. f&b IC.. still e best.. lol..
aft dat.. bathe n everything.. lights out at 12..
thought we would hav a peaceful night.. bt we hav firedrill at 2 am..
damn..
then.. gt casualty la.. bt fake casualty.. then evacuate lo..
n all stufs..
then went back to e bunk..
straight away fell asleep..
e next morning nearly overslept..

3rd day,
let's skip ba.. until at night..
e campfire..
i was suddenly asked to bcome e emcee..
1st time bcome emcee..
very nervous..
when e campfire started.. we couldnt really high e audience up..
felt very bad.. we need to shout.. bcoz e mic doesnt really work out well..
aft shouting 4 half of e campfire.. i couldnt make it anymore..
my throat hurt like hell..
before dat i was alrd coughing.. since e 1st day of camp..
then af shouting make it even worse..
in e end, regina took over.. felt so sorry 4 her..
aft dat.. our seniors who came back to join our campfire also help us a lot..
they came up with a performance n try to high e audience up..
aft dat.. campfire over..
then..
it's nt over juz like dat..
e NCOs were asked to stay back while e cadets go n bathe..
our ex chair, andrew, spoke to us..
hmm.. then.. i wun elaborate more liao lo..
coz it's our red cross affair..
lol..

aft dat..
last day.. during breakfast, we received a big surprise from e juniors..
they came up with a song jus for us, e NCOs..
i cant rmmbr e lyrics.. bt it was about.. they say sorry 4 all e problem they had created..
n we are e dearest NCOs.. sth like dat..
i think they were doing that bcoz of wad happend aft e campfire last night..
felt quite bad to hav made them worried for wad had happened..
we also came up with a song 4 them..
it goes like this:

i love u, u love me
we are Red Cross family
no matter what you've done
we won't keep in mind
we love u from all our hearts..
by: Reni (me) n Ribka

aft dat..
had our promotion ceremony..
yeah.. i was promoted from sergeant to staff sergeant..
then aft cleaning up, we hav some sorts of prize giving time..
when the chair asked who is e best NCO, one of them shouted f&b ic.. bt then..
duno wad happened, they suddenly raised their hands one by one n shouted Reni ma'am..
omg.. i was so touched!! i didnt expect them to b so "in one"
thnx to them so much.. actually e prise means nothing to me..
bt e assurance dat they had given me.. it meant a lot 4 me..
then, break camp.. went home..
took taxi home..
gt e mercedes one.. lol..
then..
when reach home.. straight away went inside my room..
my bed is e most comfortable thing!! haha..
slept for 16 hours ystrdy..
nt enough to replenish yet..
bt will still continue to replenish..
haha..

i hav learnt a lot of things from e camp..
i hav learnt how to tekker of my cadets..
helped them when they needed it most..
throughout e camp.. although sth happened..
bt truly.. my juniors all helped me 2 keep goin..
i loved them very much..
really.. i've gained their trust..
i was so happy.. although e camp was very tiring..
bt they made me 4gt all e tiredness..
really.. i meant it..
2 of my cadets fell ill on e 3rd day..
i was very worried..
1 of them hav fever.. i ran here n there to get iced water n borrowed small towel so that i can put iced towel on her forehead.. trin to reduce her temperature..
although it works, bt still, she was sent home n were asked 2 see doctor..
at 1st she didnt want.. she said whe wana attend e campfire n e promotion ceremony..
bt aft some persuasion.. she agreed to go..
the other junior.. didnt had a fever..
i think she was stressed bcoz sth happend..
n.. she was emotionally unstable..
i ran here n there to try n get her warm water..
tried to calm her down..
she went into e bunk.. n hav a nap..
aft dat she woke up.. our tcr in charge ask her 2 go home n hav a rest..
bt she refused.. she go all her might to stay..
she called her parents.. assure dat she is okay n all stuffs..
in e end.. she can stay!! i felt happy 4 her..
during e camp. i was juz like e big sister of my cadets..
i went all my might to protect them..
even if sometimes i need to sacrifice sth.. i would also do dat..
tell u a secret.. i even went into arguement with someone juz to protect my cadets..

cadets.. although i know u may nt read this post.. bt there are things dat i wana let u all know..

i love u all from e deepest of my heart..
i wun let any hurts to come close to you..
u guys are wonderful.. awesome..
as wad i hav told u.. all of u are my strongest cadets!
nobody can beat u guys..
nothing can b compared to ur perseverance..
even if everything in e world go against u guys..
i hope u'll know dat i'll always by ur side..
i'm happy when u guys are happy..
n i'm sad when u guys are sad too..
i'm glad to know dat u guys love us as well..
all of these.. made us know dat..
all our sweats, tears n sacrifices are worth it..
thank you so much..
remember dat we are always e RED CROSS FAMILY!!
all of u hav to tekker!!

by: ur dearest NCO, Reni
to: my dearest n strongest cadets of 2008!!

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7.11.08

today.. went to cineleisure..
juz for k boxing.. lol..
although my voice quite sexy.. bt still can sing lo..
haha..
sth hapened today.. bt dun wish to recall it anymore..
coz i was very upset bcoz of dat..
then.. went home..
yeah..
nothing special..
k la..
let's call it a day..
bye..

damn tired!!!

2008-10-31T06:01:00.000-07:00

this holiday damn tiring!! duno why...
bt vey tired!!! holiday still need to go back to schl hav extended curriculum..
this whole week will b very2 de busy...
tomoro onwards i will hav standard 1st aid course..
e course is e whole day one..
1,2 n 8
tomoro, which is 1st nov, 1st aid course from 9 to 6..
2nd nov, 1st aid course again.. same timing..
3rd-6noov having red x camp..
7 nov need go sentosa.. nt to play.. bt to present our report..
8 nov hav 1st aid course again.. same timing..
9 nov-- finally... OFF DAY!!!! hahas..
10 nov got NYAA in schl..
then from 11-14, so far nothing..
hope really nothing a.. i dun wan last minute then gt sth on..
let me off plis!!!!
then 15 nov i hav 1st aid competition.. hope will win lor...
aft dat... FREE!!!!!!!!!!! haha...
hope will really b freed..
hmm...
shall call it a day ba..
2moro still need wake up early..
bye..

yeah.. i'm back aft several weeks. lol.

2008-10-28T06:56:00.000-07:00

juz came back from batam..
yeah.. had a nice vacation in my Sw!t hOm3!!
e party on e 25 oct went on smoothly..
one thing dat i had expcted..
my mum's frens will ask "why hav u become darker now??" or "did u go on a diet? u had slim down a bit" n so on...
yeah.. i had become darker bcoz of e camp.. n it's like burning..
bt.. i did nt go on diet lar.. i exercise.. i still eat food dat i like.. u can ask mei..
she always said "control, ren.. control" lol..
bt i juz couldnt..
i mean.. why must we stop us from eating e food dat we like?
moreover, we didnt eat it everyday.. so i dun find e reason why we should avoid eating e food dat we like..
as long as we excercise regularly.. why nt?

yeah.. then.. sunday stay at home e whole day.. bt nt dat boring though..
coz i get to watch drama series.. n talk with my mum..

then.. on monday.. i went for facial with my mum..
nice.... coz during e facial, they also helpo 2 massage..
then aft facial, when we were waiting 4 y dad to fetch us,
the boss told me this "u hav become darker, huh? e last time i saw u u were quite fair. u should go 4 lulur (i also duno how 2 say in english) or go 4 milk bathing"
yeah.. yeah.. everybody said i had become darker.. so??
haiz...
then, my dad came to fetch us.. i said i wana go Ray's place to cut my hair..
he said ok..
so we went there lo.
he was eating..
so wait 4 a while..
then when he came..
i expect him 2 say i had become darker, u know...
bt then.. he didnt said anything..
relieve.. at least.. dat was e place where nobody comments dat i had become darker..
lol..
aft cutting hair.. my father brought me to see piano..
went round n round.. finally landed in My Piano..
i caught my eye on e yamaha piano..
$3000 ley.. alamak.. second hand some more..
bt then.. nice er.. e sound... omg...
my dad also said.. e black yamaha one.. quite nice...
very elegant..
yeah.. true.. e price also veri elegant.. lol.. bt e price of piano is around dat lor..
my dad ask whether i really like it..
i must say no lor.. then he said.. tell him when i changed my mind..
omg... i really like it!! bt... if i buy it there.. wad's e point?
i cant play it often also..
then i tell him.. i wana buy e one in sgp.. digital piano..
although nt as elegant as e black yamaha lar.. hikz..
bt then.. nt bad also lar..
then he said ok lor.. he'll come on thurs or fri..
so we'll go see together.. must say gdbye 2 e black yamaha liao..
haha..
then went home..
met up with my big sis..
aft dat went out again.. went to kfc.. eat with my loveliest cousin, Ying Ying!!
i promised her to treat he kfc when i came back later..
af dat me n my big sis met up with her frens.. the we went to catch movie at mega mall..
we watched "one night with e king" honestly speaking.. i dun really know wad's going on..
lol..
i understand wad it is saying.. bt.. i duno.. i find dat some parts of e movie is being cut off..
the we headed back home.. monday was e most busiest day during my stay lor..

then finally, today.. juz stay at home.. hmm.. did go to e wet market with my mum.. dat's all lo..
then in e afternoon need 2 head back 2 sg liao lor..
vivian joined me.. the ferry damn slow!!!! 1 n half an hour then reach le!!!
crazy.. made me feel very lazy liao..
i was thinking of coming back earlier.. slowly prepare.. then had a gd night sleep..
haiz.. in e end cannot..
ohya.. btw.. during my stay of 3 days, i slept 4 more than 12 hours a day ler..
haha.. envy ba?? hehe.. kidink.. bt really damn nice..
all e sleepless nights in sgp, all earned back liao..
haha..
k la..
let's call it a day ba..
bye..

hao jiu bu jian!!!!

2008-10-18T05:29:00.000-07:00

lol..
hav nt been updating siax..
i was busying with exam..
then aft exam straight away gt camp..
i intended to update dat night aft camp..
bt then coz i was too tired..
so didnt make it..
haha..

e camp was quite fun, actually..
it's a kayak course camp..
we learnt how to kayak in e camp..
yeah..
e one dat i find e most difficult thing is to capsize..
lol..
we were to capsize ourselves..
then tap 3 times before we can go out of e capsized kayak..
i can capsize..
bt then it's either i 4gt to tap, or i 4gt to hold on to e paddle..
those who went 4 e course will know wad i mean ba..
haha...
a lot of things happened..
unhappy things, happy things..
all sorts..
bt it's quite fun though..
it is tiring, bt it is expected ba..
i was alrd mentally prepared be4 i went 4 e camp..
i juz hope, all these wun b wasted lo..
although i knew that 4 me passing this course is unlikely..
bt... yeah. i duno.. juz hope..

3 days being drenched by rain in e camp..
haha..
it has been 4 ages since i play with rain water..
i mean.. u really stay under e rain for hours..
e last time was probably around 6 years ago ba..
when i was still in primary schl..
af dat..
since i move to batam.. no more playing with rain water..
my parents dun really allow..
hey.. it's making sense ba..
when u tell ur parents u wana stay under rain water for hours,
will they allow??
obviously no..
moreover.. aft dat incident... i doubt they'll allow lo..
dat incident caused me suffer a lot..
went to see 4 docs, bt to no avail..
in e end, e last doc advise my parents to bring me to mt.elisabeth..
then.. being warded lo..
it was a history 4 me alrd.. haha..
haiya.. why rake it up?? lol..
anyway..
let's get back to e camp thingy..
then aft being drenched by rain for 3 days respectively..
when came back from camp..
np, actually before we came back i alrd caught a cold..
e last night at camp, when i was sleeping..
i was trembling very seriously..
no jacket, no extra clothes to cover myself.. nothing..
jacket was wet bcoz of an incident..

must really thnx to mei lor..
i told e other fren who was awake dat i was trembling..
i didnt expect mei to hear me..
i thought she was deeply asleep..
bt then she suddenly wake up n said "hah? cold hah? nah (pass me e jacket she was wearing)"
then she went back to sleep..
haha..
thnx to her n her jacket, at least. it provides me with a bit of warmth..

bcoz of dat, i couldnt go back to schl e next day.,.
haha.. caught a flu lo.. then coughing.. sneezing all e time..
really very terrible.. so didnt go to schl..
e next day also didnt go..
so in total, 2 days didnt go 2 schl..
coop in e room all e time.. lying on my bed..
watchingdeo, sleeping, reading, chatting in msn, listening to songs..
thought aft stay in e house for 2 days, today i wana go out 4 some fresh air a..
bt then.. somehow it was cancelled..
so 2dae i didnt go out again.. 3 days being cooped in e house..

tomoro, will surely go out!!! haha...
go out buy some facial stuff..
bcoz of e camp, my face very dry le..
nt only my face a.. my skin which was exposed to e sun is like burnt liau..
haha..
e colour onli la..
when i compare my hands colour to my stomach's colour, it was like "kopi susu" liao..
e colour really very different..
must do sth about this a..
this 25th, there'll b a party in batam..
it was actually my mum n her frens organise one..
all our family members will attend..
if i were to attend it in e situation like now,
omg.. i duno wad will happen to me liao..
lol.. hmm... nothing more 2 say le..
will update again ba..
bye..

qi shi wo le!!!

2008-10-04T04:58:00.000-07:00

these days... duno why..
gt a lot of things happen a!!!

hmm... bt then.. i 4gt liau..
only can remember some..

yesterday aft schl, we took 804 to yishun int. as per normal..
when i was inside the bus, i saw an elderly board e bus..
there were many ppl... the bus almost full liao..
no more seats for him.. he is very old.. can see that he is unable to stand for too long..
then, i decided to offer my seat to him..
juz aft i stood up n wana tell the elderly to take my seat, sth happen..
guess wad???
one woman, who is in her 20+ i think..
go n sit on it.. oh my gosh!
i really cant believe it..
the elderly is juz standing in front of her!! cant she see dat??
my fren all laughing..
i wanted to tell e woman dat e seat was meant for e elderly..
bt then, she sat there alrd.. if i were to ask her to stand up, she'll hate me till death i think, so many ppl around!!
bt..
although she is juz in her 20+, i think her her body system had gone much more faster to e age of 40+ alrd..
she cant even stand for a while more me???
so "considerate" of her.. (u know that i'm being sarcastic)

today gt A math remedial...
met up earlier with vivian earlier..
this morning, i morning call her at 9.30...
bt.. i think i had wasted my effort to do dat..
i think she really gt up only at 10.30 ba..
in the end need to wait her..
i wana meet up with her earlier bcoz we planned to go to aunt ani's place...
to wish her happy hari raya before we went for remedial..
then she late..
vivi, r u reading this now??
hehe..
she reached yishun is almost 12 liau..
we havnt even had our lunch, then we hav remedial at 1..
confirm cant make it.
so i had to call aunt ani dat we'll go aft remedial..

then.. u know wad??? i lost my coin pouch inside 804!!
omg!! "nt again?" i think..
haiz..
cant concentrate in e remedial at all..
haha..
anywy, i think i'm dropping also..

then i remembered dat my relative "gang hao" is in yishun..
so i phone her to help me check at e yishun int. servie counter there..
so sorry to hav disturbed her, coz she was watching movie when i called her..
then, my coin pouch really there!! thnx god!!!
i dun need to waste money to change it AGAIN!!!
haha..
thnx to her also, to help me go n ask..

then aft remedial went to aunt ani's house..
i was stunned when i went into e house!!
it was sooo comfortable..
i dun feel like i'm in a stranger's house at all!!
then, so sweet of her, to hav prepared a bit of food for us..
she cooked bee hoon n chicken wing without e wing 4 us..
hehe.. mei, u reading this?? chicken wing ler...
ur favourite.. although it's without e wing la.. lol..
her family very cute..
haha... then we wana make a move, she sent us to e lift..
then hand us a green envelope..
our chinese new year we have red pocket mha..
their is green one..
really so kind of her..
to hav cook for us, host us, n gave us green pocket..
vivi, it's nt wrong to come with me, rite??
hehe..

then we left..
went to int. to retrieve my coin pouch 1st..
thnx so much to e bus crew...
then take 853, accompany vivi 4 a while.. reach khatib le then take 965 go home..

u know wad?? i realise sth..
when it is hari raya day, the muslims will wear their traditional clothes to go to other's house..
like wad we will do during chinese new year..
nt only that, the onr that make me impressed is, when they r goin out, a bunch of them, they'll wear the same design of clothes, or the same colour..
it is so special! is it their custom??
then e whole family members will go out together, wearing the same design of clothes..
very nice e..
i duno why.. when i saw them like dat, i felt so harmonious..
haha..
maybe i'm too sensitive ba..
haha..

kk.. need to go study liao..
hehe.. bye..

big reunion!!!

2008-09-29T05:13:00.000-07:00

went back to batam last weekend..
my grandma bdae on e sat n my dad on e sun..

my grandma bdae was e most exciting one..
coz.. most of her children came to our house..
from all over indonesia..
lol.. nt really la.. bt some of them came to batam especially for this..
it's a big reunion 4 us, the grandchildren..
we threw a big party in my house..
to celebrate my grandma's bdae..
poor mum... she cooked herself..
bt e food was nice!!
hey.. dat's my mum, u know?? haha..
i get to meet most of my cousins..
we chatted for nearly e whole nite (except for the time when i babysitting, see below)..
asking about each other's life..
suddenly it reminds me of those days..
when i was in batam..
this particular cousin, considered dote on me la..
he is 2-3 years older than me..
he was my chauffer..
lol.. coz we share the same friends..
his friends are my friends and vice versa..
we also share the same hobby..
so we'll stick together..
when my parents couldnt reach me, they'll automatically call him..
haha..
do u know dat it's normal for us to walk side by side n holding hands??
we are too close..
not only for us.. with the other cousins and even our normal frens..
i'm really very glad to hav a big n bonded family like this..
for us, holding hands doesnt mean BGR..
bt in sgp, u juz see a boy n a girl sit face to face or talk n laugh together, or wadeva, we'll say they're in BGR..
huh.. sometimes.. cant stand e atmosphere here..

i also became nanny...
haha.. normally, i only babysit one of my aunts children..
coz she came to our house since she was a baby..
her mum was busy tending the shop..
so.. yeah...
bt this time round, coz her house was under renovation, both of the daughters came our house..
so..
48 hours baby sit 2 children..
n during e celebration of our grandma's bdae, i babysit 4 children under the age of 5..
it was very very tiring.. they taking turns to ask me to carry them..
it's either they wana see the fishes or they crying for their mums..
coz we hav one big aquarium in e house.. e children like to see the fishes from the opening..
duno why..
then.. when their mums n dads all dining, they cried..
coz we taking turns to eat.. the teenagers, then e "uncles aunties"
haha.. i couldnt handle all of them at once..
i wun expect my cousins (guy) to help me, they'll only make them cry even harder..
as for e girls, only 1 of the childen wana play with them..
e rest of them are afraid of strangers ( most of my cousins are from afar..)
soo... damn tiring... bt fun though..

today...
vivian said wana go met up with her dad..
so ask me to accompany me..
went to bugis..
e part dat i hated is when we were waiting for the taxi..
haiz..
then.. "somebody" said wana treat me sakae lo..
bt then in the end dun hav..
hikz..

haha...
nothing more to add..
oh ya..
juz one thing to complaint..
today was so much abount waiting!!! waiting for taxi, waiting for bus 88 when i wana go home..
2dae was e 1st time i waited so long..
haiz... lan fei wo de shi jian..
haha..
k la..
let's call it a day ba...
bye...

hiii...

2008-09-25T03:37:00.000-07:00

juz now.. when studying with mei in mc.d, she suddenly said, "i'll hav to wait next month to read ur blog again." unaware of her criticism, i ask her why with an innocent look.. bt then, before she answered, i realised dat it was because i once updated my blog only the next month.. she is trying to be funny..
lol..
it's nt that i dun want to update.. bt i really dun hav e time..
because i will need to spent hours juz to blog..
:D

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today.... i sprain my waist!! wth...
jinsheng, yu xiang, wen sheng, gerjo, sebastian..
listen here!!!
because of u ppl.. i sprain my waist!!!!
this was what happened..
me n jessica was in an empty classroom, waiting for vivian..
then ribka, who was outside, we dun let her in by pulling e handle..
haha.. we want to play with her la..
it was fun!!
then when e boys came, they force the door to open..
i'm nt dat strong la..
then when it's opened, duno whose idea, to lock us inside..
they didnt hav e key.. they juz merely use their bodies to lean over the door..
bt hey.. they r boys!! e 3 of them, or even 2 of them.. juz need to lean over the door.. n dat's it..\
because the door swing outwards..
then me, jesica n clarissa (she pop out suddenly.. lol)
were locked inside lo..
they dun wan to open..
we pushed..
we banged..
we tried all ways to make e door open, bt it cant..
bt somehow we manage to open a bit with the broom..
then..
they finally had enough of playing.. they let the door opened..
bt quickly, they ran away..
haha..
dare to do, bt dun dare to face the consequences..
wad a guy...
haiz..
bt i know..
they're juz playful..
haha..
it's fun though.. although sweat a lot.. n sprained my waist somemore..
bt i dun hold it againts them lar..
it's nt totally their faults..
i had a problem with my waist before..
maybe juz now i bang too hard..
then become like dat..
wana do a full body x-ray.. bt afraid..
afraid of e result..

i wonder why i had so many problems..
gastric, sprained leg, srpained waist...
sooo many problems..
u know wad...
i failed my 2.4 km run..
1st time because i lazy to run.. no motivation... so failed..
2nd time was because my ankle... i sprained my ankle be4 ma.. then juz started to run onli, i accidentally sprained a bit again.. in e end walk back to e starting point barefooted..
3rd n 4th both were because of my gastric..
damn it..
i wana pass!!! who dun wan pass??
sit n reach, shuttle run, sit up, standing board jump and pull up, all passed!!!
some of it i passed with nearly gold somemore..
then because of 2.4, i fail everything..
wth..
yesterday hav e urge of running again..
bt.. i afraid sth happen again.. tomoro exam alrd..
eng ppr 1 n 2..
wad if..
if...
sth really happen??
i cant afford to fail my eng!!
soo......
i rather giv up on 2.4..
quite sad.. bt what to do???
haiz...
bt still.. sth happend to me.. my waist.. haha..

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i hav one book to recommend it to u..
"Tuesdays with Morrie" by Mitch Albom
it was 1st publish in e US in 1997..
wew.. it was like 11 years ago..
haha...
bt it's still available now..
u hav o try.. it's really nice..
or if u wana borrow from me, also can..
bt see who 1st..
lol..
u can really learn a lot of thins inside.. e greatest life lesson..
u should try..
the author really can bring u into e world of his..
he describe every details, yet it wun bore u to sleep..
if u really focus on e reading, u may sometimes smile, sometimes laugh and even cry...
hmm....
really a good book..
u may also wan to try "the five ppl u met in heaven" and "for one more day"
both by Mitch Albom as well..

-once u learn how to die, u learn how to live-

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2008-09-20T06:07:00.000-07:00

19.09.08,

which is yesterday, i went to harbourfront with mei..
she was goin back to Batam..
so i see her off lor...
hendri came along..
with 1 fren..
err... his name is Y... S....
i 4gt... lol.. i hav fish memory..
i didnt call his name dat often.. so cant remeber..
bt he said juz call him YS..

we went to vivo..
walk here n there.. no destination..
hendri lo..
said he wana organize, bt in the end he didnt do it..
we went to toy r us 1st..
YS said wana find his fren..
then we waited outside..
i duno wad is dat game called..
e one dat u put $1 coin, then turn, one ball will come out..
u'll understand la..
mei go n press the 'money return' button..
suddenly $1 coin drop..
haha..
maybe somebody left it ba..
then we use dat $1 to turn..
altough e one come out isnt e one dat i want..
bt nvm..
haha..
dat's life..
sometimes.. u wun get wad u really want..

then YS suggest to watch movie.. bt then dun hav any intereting movie 2 watch..
so didnt watch..

i'll remember dat day very much..
coz dat day, hendri bully me a lot!!!!!
huh... cant understand why he likes 2 bully me dat much..
i pity mei siax..
coz "bei jia cai cong jian" between me n hendri..
when he bully me, i'll threat mei dat i'll go n find vivian straight away..
haha..
bt actually i wun do dat lar..
i'm nt dat bad k..
finally...
no destination..
we went to mc.d n sit..
hendri treat us ice cream..
then we play truth n dare..
bt hendri love to "sua lai!"
then like 2 bully me, as usual..
finally, here r e five characteristics somebody said about me:
-violence ( coz hendri bully me a lot.. so i like to hit him..)
-he didnt understand e dialects dat i speak (is dat a kind of characteristic? lol)
-cheerful (this is e only + characteristic dat he mentioned about)
- like to push away e faults 2 other person (coz when he said i'm quite violent, i told him t's hendri's fault.. so he said i like to push my faults to other ppl lo..bt i'm a responsible lad ok?? haiya.. aynthing lar.. my family n frens know dat is enough for me..)
- i 4gt.. hahaha.. really couldnt remember..

then they said they need 2 go orchar.. so they left..
as me, i stayed behind with mei.. coz her departure time is like 1 more hour..
then finally.. she left..
i went home..

20.09.08,
which is today, i didnt went out.. unless for lunch n send vivian home lar..
when i woke up in e morning.. i did a lot of thinking..
a lot.. until duno which one to start with..
hmm...
i realise dat.. i really miss my family..
really..
i miss their love..
i miss their protection..
i miss their hugs..
i miss their kisses..
i miss their voices..
i miss those familiar faces which i saw it for 15 years..
now i'm 16+
for e past 1 n half years, i didnt see them everyday anymore..

i really learn a lot since i came here..
i became more matured, i think..
haha..
only my thinking became matured..
bt my character still 4 year old.. (coz i was born in leapyear!) haha

i like to put other ppl in e 1st place..
before i did sth, i will always think about other 1st..
this make me really tired..
i ever thought dat.. juz for 1 time
let me be selfish juz for 1 time
to put myself in e 1st place..
bt i cant bring myself to do that..
i juz cant..
i duno why..

vivian came 2 my house..
we planned 2 study together..
bt in the end is i look aft her, i, myself didnt study..
she fell sick.. cant eat out.. so i went to cold storage buy some ingredients then cook sth bland for her..
she said e food is very bland...
sad siax.. bcoz she fell sick, dat's why i cook sth bland for her..
i also follow suit.. she ate bland, i also..
bt she still complaint dat e food too bland..
haiz..
i think i can b a doc liao.. lol..
when ppl fell sick will come n find me..
yesterday my fren fell sick, schlmate..
she said she's giddy.. ask whether i hav panadol..
i dun hav..
so i hep her massage her head.
then she felt better liao, i think..
then my another fren..
said he muscle ache..
then ask me to massage for him for a while..
lol..
they think i open a massage centre a??
then today..
vivian fell sick..
i look aft her..
then cook 4 her also..
this isnt e 1st time she came 2 my house when she fell sick lar..
last time she also came.. i look aft her n cook 4 her as well..
haiz....
i was wondering.."who's next?" haha..

lonely mid autumn festival..

2008-09-14T05:55:00.000-07:00

1st of all, hapy mid autumn festival!!
did u had a very good day??
i dun.. i woke up then went to harbourfront..
my parents just gt back from cruise..
so i went there meet up with them before they head back to batam..
we had lunch together, as a celebration of mid autumn festival..
lol.. then.. we discussed about my intention to go to malaysia..
it's a programme to train my leadership skills n teamwork...
i really wish to go.. bt my father dun allow..
i knew he is worried.. he juz wanted to protect me..
he didnt want any harm come upon me.. i understand..
bt.. quite disappointed tough..
then i told him, i want a piano..
i hav a keyboard, bt i want a piano..
then he agreed into it.. he said he would rather buy me a piano than letting me go to malaysia altough it is more costly but it will not harm me...
sometimes i find my father a bit too protective in terms of letting me go overseas n explore myself without them.. bt i know that he dote on me.. he cares for me..
if he didnt care for me, he wouldnt b so protective..

when they headed back to batam, i went home..
doing nothing.. watch tv at most..
i planned to hav instant noodles as my dinner..
it's very common for me to hav instant noodles for dinner..
bt then, i'm curious of how the neighbourhood will celebrate it, so i decided to dine outside..
to my surprise, there was nothing.. no celebration at all.. they juz sell mooncakes..
bt no other celebration..

on my way back home, i didnt see anyone playing lanterns..
nt even the children..
then suddenly my mind flow to e past..
when i was young.. in my hometown..
mid autumn was one of e big day for us, the children..
our parents will buy us the latest design of the lanterns for us..
at night, we'll play the lanterns together.. we hav a very friendly neighbourhood..
i missed those days.. how i wish i can go back to the past..

i miss my family..

i miss those days,
when i woke up n hav breakfast together with them..
i miss those days,
when i came back from schl n hav lunch together with them..
i miss those days,
when i came back from tuition n hav dinner with them..
i miss those days,
when we'll hav our short weekend go to a small village where my father grew up by my father's very own ship..
i miss those days..
really... u wun know how i feel.. unless u were in my shoes..
what i wish now is to hurry up finish my studies here.. get a good grades..
help out in my father's company.. so that he can enjoy his life..
altough e word business is never in my dictionary, bt i dun mind.. because i love my family..
i can study psychology later.. yeah.. my parents sacrificed a lot for me..
it's nt that i cant pursue my dream anymore.. i still can.. it's juz dat i still hav to wait..
a small sacrifice like this is nothing to compare to my parents' sacrifeced for us..

....

2008-09-08T04:12:00.000-07:00

2dae..
didnt o 2 schl..
morning wen i woke up.. felt sth wrong with my stomach..
it's considered lao mao bing liau..
coz my stomach always giv me problems one..
maybe coz i ate to oily food this few days during my saty in johor..
e food there damn oily..
even my mum said..
"is e oil here very cheap??"
lol.. it's either too oily or too sweet..

yesterday went out with mei n hendri..
we met up at marina square..
then.. e one who said wana treat duno wer 2 eat..
then we wana went to holland v to eat nasi lemak..
bt wen we reach e bus stop, we duno which bus 2 take..
haha.. then we decided 2 go orchard..
wen reach, we spent around an hour juz 2 find a place to eat..
spin here n there..
in e end.. went 2 APR..
then went to cine, juz 4 neoprint..
haha..

aft dat we went 2 hf 2 fetch vivi..
we reach there before vivian..
so we went 2 skypark 1st..
play water.. lol..
hendri's GREAT idea, throw mei's shoe into e "sea"
then mei throw mine..
felt very unfair, so i throw hendri's..
haha... then time 2 go down to fetch vivi liao..
wen met up with her..
found out dat she lost her sim card...

nothing more 2 say liao..
bai..

haa... omg...

2008-09-03T01:57:00.000-07:00

wen i saw my post.. i hav an urged to wait 4 tomoro then blogging..
u know why?? see e date carefully.. last post was 4th august, n tomoro is 4th sept.. understand now??
bt really hav a lot of things 2 say.. until cant wait anymore..

a lot of things happened..
i dun no wad's with me since start of august till last 2 weeks..
i seemed to lose my temper very easily..
am tired??
i think so..

23 of august was my mum's bdae..
i intended 2 went back on dat day itself..
bt i think i cant hold it aymore, haha...
coz quite a long time ago since i went back..
on 22nd august,
i told my dad, i took e last ferry, which was 10 o'clock...
my dad shocked siax..
bt he didnt say anything..
hahahaa..
on e journey, i thought a lot..
i was thinking of e reason of me throwing temper so easily..
was it because i was too tired??
on that day itself, i told myself..
i'll relax myself during my stay in batam..
although only 2 days.. bt i'm contented tough..
at least for these 2 days i was with my family all e time..
wen i came back, i realise dat i became much better..
was it because my family is like my charger??
haha...
since then, i neva pressurize myself 2 do things..
nt really dun pressurize at all, i mean..
nt like before..
if u knew me, u'll know wad i mean..
i was sb who wans 2 make things best out of it..
even if i need 2 sacrifice "sth"
n dat "sth" is nt casual at all..
now i dun.. coz i realise dat, dat "sth", if i lost it, i'll neva find it again..

now.. i need 2 revise 4 end of year liao..
stress.. even i neva press myself, time will..
afraid dat i'll fail..
duno leh..
i juz dun wan myself 2 regret..
dat's all..

i felt like goin 2 beach or somewer hav water.. like reservoir??
of corz, except 4 canal.. hahaha...
lake, river, maybe??
no, i was not born by e river or etc.. haha...
i juz like e feeling..
e feeling of tranquility..
i juz wan 2 b there, without saying a word..
stare at e sky n surrounding..

2dae, wen i was on my way 2 schl 4 hol acad prog..
i look out of e window.. i saw a lot of cars, carrrying diiferent types of people..
- car with a lot of cutie designs inside..full of the pooh.. even e chairs.. omg.. it must hav cost a bomb! haha..
- car with one family inside, e dad n mum n 1 child.. they seem 2 b from a wealthy family..
- a van with one family inside.. e dad was driving, mum n e youngest child sat in front, e other 2 children sat behind.. i could only see their heads pop out to e front seat.. they may nt from a wealthy family, bt they're happy tough..
- a truck with a bunch of bangla workers sat behind of it.. getting ready to work, i think..
- a mini truck, where e dad sat in front, driving, n e 2 children, a gurl n a boy, sat in an open space, which i thought it was quite dangerous 4 their age.. i was thinking whether they followed their dad 2 work coz of e holiday.. hahaaa...
- a taxi with a guy sitting behind, with e suit curling e hand n a tie around e neck.. lookd very formal.. hahaa...

u know wAD??
i had juz quarrel with 1 of my fren..
i was juzt kidding with him.. i thought he knew me n dat he would know dat i dun mean it..
bt still, he had chosen 2 believe it.. i was quite disappointed..
4get it ba...

u know wad?? i received this news recently..
e person dat i hav been finding all this while..
finalyy, i get a bit of clue..
my cousin saw him before when he was driving 2 schl..
juz recently.. although i didnt see him personally. bt
at least now i know.. he is still in batam..
he had nt gone else wer..
i hope dat, he is still in a good shape..
he wasnt my boyfren.. i wun consider him 2 be my boyfren, neither will he, consider me 2 b his gurlfren ..
we were too close till we neva think of dat..
bt, maybe it's a fate.. time's up..
we suddenly juz lost contact without any reason..
ppl say, wer ther is meeting, there will always be seperating..
i wish i can meet him again.. at least let me see him once more... juz once more..
let me thank him n ask this qstn dat i hav been wanting 2 ask him.. n let us hav a proper good bye, before we we go on our seperate ways..

this 14 sept, is a big day in chinese calender.. wen i was in batam, we'll go 2 vihara 2 do some voluntary work.. with a bunch of frens..
i wish i could meet him there.. too bad it was on sunday..
i need to come back here on sunday evening.. i wun get e chance 2 do voluntary work.. coz we normally did dat at night, wer there will b a lot of ppl.. anyway.. i really hope 2 see him..will this be granted??

-wishin 2 see him-

monday blue??? nt really..

2008-08-04T05:58:00.000-07:00

2dae pass by quite fast..
maybe because i didnt really pay attention in clas except for a math class..
i really dun hav e mood..
i still cant get over it..
about ulp..
this morning, when i reach schl, ppl still talking bout ulp...
asking whether i failed or passed..
i told them i failed..
then..
i walked out of class, n cried..
i was okay alrd..
when i left home, i didnt think bout it anymore..
i thought i had left it behind..
bt when they ask me, i remembered it again..
e feeling..
e terrible feeling..

aft schl, my mood came back to normal..
i settled myself down before last lesson end..
aft dat had dikir barat rehearsal..
students from china who came to visit our school today, for one week, joined us..
they were quite enthu bout it..
at least they're nt e shy type..
it made me relief to know dat..

aft dikir barat rehearsal, i went 2 amk hub with vivian..
e purpose is 2 find gifts 4 our fren, jessica birthday which falls on 8 aug 08..
yeah.. during olympic..
haha..
there was a traffic on our way there..
car accident..
i wonder if there were any victims..
i wanted to help, bt i cant..
i cant get down from e bus..
even if i was given chance 2 go down, they'll juz push me aside, because of my age..
i hope nothing serious happen, i hope there were no victims..
if they were, i sincerely prayed that they'll b fine soon, really..

when we reach there, we went 2 mini toons..
one of e guy, who serve us, nt really serve, bt i duno wad is e rite word to use, bt nvm..
he is very humorous!
hahas..
i duno how 2 put it dat way..
if u were there, u'll also laugh at him..
he's quite frenly, though..
if every staff are juz like him, nt onli in mini toons, bt in every where, all around e world, then there will b peace..

2dae ends juz like dat..
hmm...
at least, other than e incident in e morning..
everything seems to go on quite smoothly 2dae..
i'm very happy..
i hope dat everyday will b like 2dae, nothing serious happen in my life..

blurrr.....

2008-08-02T07:00:00.000-07:00

last post was 2nd june..
now is 2nd august..
oh my god..
wxactly 2 moths ago..

2dae decided to post is because i'm really down..
i need 2 puor out all my emotion..
i'm sorry dat i hav decided to pour it here..

i duno wer 2 start..
i'll juz come 2 e point..
i failed ULP (Unit Leader Programme)
i was really very sad..
i really have put in a lot of effort in there..
i hav also sacrificed a lot of things for this..
i always bring e best of myself during ULP..
during e camp n all dat..
bt i stil failed..
of corz, i cried..

my frens, my VI they all tried 2 comfort me..
my frens said, nvm.. at least u didnt go 4 nothing..
u hav gained a lot of knowledge from ULP.
my VI told me, dun worry, dun be sad, a lot of VI also failed in ULP,
u must prove 2 them dat u can do it!
my ULP ma'am told us, wadeva e result is, whether u failed or passed,
u'll still go back to ur unit n do ur unit proud, bring ur unit 2 a greater height.
bring all ur knowledge in ULP 2 ur unit..

i always told myself nt 2 regret..
since i hav failed..
nothing can b done..
but i'll not give up!
i will nt 4get e goal i hav written in e smaal yellow notes given by my chief mentor in ULP..
dat is to bring my unit 2 a greater height, n prove 2 them dat even though i'm a foreigner n a newcomer, i can be a good leader as well!..

although i failed ULP, i will still continue this journey..
e journey 2 b a good leader n 2 b a red x youth..
i want 2 continue 2 b involve in red x..
i wan 2 b a VI aft i graduated..
i want to continue 2 help others..
red x is my life..
i luv red x..
e failure i'm facing now is nothing aft i realize dat i still hav so many things 2 achieve..
i wun give up..
i wun!!!

-red crossholic-

u thought bout it be4??

2008-06-02T02:35:00.000-07:00

everybody live in regret..

no???
are u sure??

even if it's a small regret..
it is still a regret..

wad do u think of very often when u regret a thing??
"aiya.. why did i choose dat, nt this?? if i had chosen dat, bla.. bla.. bla.."
or
"if i had listened to them, this wont hav happened"

if, if n if..
so many IFs..

since u hav chosen it, why bother to regret??
why dun u change e way of thinking??
instead of
"IF i had bla.. bla.. bla"
change to
"since i had chosen this, why dun i make e best out of it?"

for exmaple..
i, myself..
sometimes i regretted coming to Singapore 2 study..
parents nt around, falling sick very easily, too tough, too strezz
at 1st i always thought this
"why did i chose 2 come here? my life wouldnt b so miserable if i had stayed in my hometown"

now..
knowing n understanding e fact of wad has done cant b undone..
i tried 2 think in another way..
"since i had chosen to come here, why dun i make e best out of it?"
i put my best in everything i do..
coz i know..
no point regretting..
we cant go back 2 e past..

why nt ask this qstn 2 urself?
"if i can go back to e past, am i goin 2 prevent this from happening?"

if ur ans is yes..
let me remind u this..
nothing is perfect in this world..
if u had chosen another path, do u ensure dat it'll b a happy ending??

if ur ans is no..
then wad's e point regretting??

very easy to say..
yes.. u're rite..
i also hav e time when i regretted things again..
it has become our habits to regret things..
it is impossible 2 change overnight..
take time..

remember..
dun keep on saying IF..
change ur mindset of thinking..

-regrets go away-

strezz siax

2008-05-29T09:08:00.002-07:00

duno..
juz strezz..

sometimes..
very tired of doing things..
feel like having 1 day off den do wadeva i wan..
bt..
dat 1 dae neva come..
i tried having 1 dae off..
bt neva really off..
will surely hav sth suddenly on..
in e end i dun hav time 4 myself..
is it really so difficult??
juz 1 dae..
1 dae 4 me 2 relax..
do things dat i wan..

anyone of u love 2 see up to e sky??
i like it..
nt olny sky..
moon, sun, stars, trees, lands, resevoirs, sea, etc

i hav 2 wake up quite early n leave home before morning breaks..
every schl day, i'll get to enjoy a very beautiful mornig..
when i walked in e morning 2 get 2 e bus stop, i looked up..
i saw moon n stars..
very beautiful..
morning breaks be4 i reached schl..
inside e bus i'll see sun coming out slowly..
e sky was orange in colour..
at dat moment i felt like i was in e paradise..
it's too sad dat i saw it in e bus..
if iwas having recreation at e beach n watch it with someone i like..
e feeling will b totally different, rite??

all these beauty..
will soon b doom if we neva take gud care of diz earth..
go green, ppl..
dun take things 4 granted..
dun b selfish..
dun juz think of urself..
think of ur next generation..
they would also like to enjoy all these beauty..

the earth is crying for hep, cant u hear it???

-strezzd gurl-

mei's bdae..

2008-05-27T09:09:00.000-07:00

2dae..
just gt back from batam..
i went to meet up with mei n frens 2 celebrate her bdae..
with luggage with me, there i went..

we planned 2 go 2 settler..
when we reached there, somone booked e entire settler, i think..
so..
we didnt go in..

we went to orchard..
go k box..
they wanted 2 go 4 pool..
bt then i dun wan..
i assured them dat they'll go 4 pool..
me n another fren will go shopping..
bt in e end..
we go k box..

we sang n sang n sang..

then we went 2 ayam penyet ria 2 hav dinner..
then we go home..

i hav a lot to share..
bt nt n0w..
i'll find a day..
n say it all out...

-confused-

recently very busy ar,,

2008-05-24T06:24:00.000-07:00

these few days dun hav time 2 post blog...
no time...
busy with a lot of things..
ppl holidae is enjoying..
my holiday is..
sucks..
busying..

2dae..
hav ULP briefing..
report in full red x uniform..
e feeling when i wore e uniform.
is great..
words cant describe my feeling..

i thought it will b very tough at 1st..
bt..
at e end, i felt dat my decision 2 come 4 e training isnt wrong..
i really enjoyed it..
very much..

2dae i sick also..
wen on my way going 4 e training,
i felt very giddy..
felt like fainting in any time..
felt like throwing out..
felt like dying...
very miserable..
then i check my body temp..
it was 38.4
then 38.5
then 37.7
it goes up n down..
make me very worried..

i'm goin back 2 my hometown 2moro..
home sweet home..
wheneva i fall sick, i'll think of my home..
home is e best medicine 4 me..

here i come, my sweet home..

-sick ppl-

2dae, i cried a lot..

2008-05-21T05:23:00.000-07:00

early in e mornig..
i cried..
my school is organizing a donation programme..
they collect donation from the stdnt in our schl..
they show us some slides of e victims, made me cried..

aft dat,
we hav harmony workshop..
learn to know more about one another..
learn not to being racist..
n many other things..

then, i went down to general office to meet up with mei..
there is a booth in front the general office, a donation box there, n a heartshape paper..
i donated in e morning..
will donate again..
then i write sth inside e heartshape paper..
i wrote in mandarin..
i didnt know how to write..
i askd my chinese fren to wrtie for me in another paper, then i copied it to my paper..
using my own handwritting..
i wrote "wo cu fu ni men. yao yong gan de huo xia qu"
i hope they can read my handwriting..

then we have chemical powered car..
duno why e car always go side ways..
e worst thing is, e vinegar always spread to my face..
damn it..

then..
just before i went home, i watched e captain's ball competition..
this time round, i didnt get hit by e ball..
e competition was very exciting!!
i admired HIM very much..
duno why..
i just admired HIM..
nt LIKE or LOVE i think..
just simply ADMIRE..

when i really want to go home, i passed e general office again..
seeing e board where they pasted all e photos of e victims..
i cried again..
seeing all e children's dead body..
really ache my heart..
the children..
they had just begun their journey, yet they had to leave so soon..
mothers protect their children from e falling objects with their own bodies..
teachers only cared to asked e stdnts to leave e schl as soon as possible..
soldiers only cared to rescue e victims as fast as they could..
yet..
they died..

we don't know what will happen next..
do ppl in sichuan know dat they'll face such a disaster??
no, they don't..
if they do, they will nt send their children to e schl..
n would bring their families to a safer place..

but we don't know anything..
so, live ur life to e fullest..
cherish ur life..
dun take ppl around u for granted..
we dun know wad will happen in e next minute..
we may nt be around anymore..
or we may have lost someone close to us..

-crying baby-

weird siax...

2008-05-20T05:15:00.000-07:00

2dae..
need to arrive at schl quite early.
help out the tcr for the post exams activities..

aft helping out, we did water rocket..
we consructed water rocket, then fly it up high..
although my rocket was nt e furthest..
bt i really enjoyed e process of constructing it..

aft dat, i represent my house (not e house that u live in)
it's some kind of grouping in our schl..
we are divided into 4 groups, wad we so called house..
consist of all e levels from sec 1s to 5s..
elbrus house, vinson house, everest house, kilimanjaro house..
i'm from vinson house..
i represent my house to play short put..
2day, we compete with e other houses..
i came in 2nd..
quite disappointing, bt my result wasn't very disappointing, tough..

then just before we went home..
we went to see the captain's ball competition..
i was quite unlucky, i think..
there was 1 group there who was practicing with e ball.
they anyhow throw..
then..
e ball hit my head..
omg!
at first e boy didnt want to admit nor say sorry..
then, e tcr merely said "boys, be a manwhale"
then e boy say sorry while i was facing back..
then e tcr said, "go n ask her name n say sorry face to face"
then he came to my present n ask "wad is ur name"
if u were at e scene, u'l burst to laughter like i did..
his expression was very funny..
i burst into laughter n walk away..
then he told e tcr "cher, she just smile n walk off"
i dun noe wad e tcr said to him, wad i now was he came after me..
shouting my name n say sorry..
i merely tilt my head..
bt didnt say anything..
he kept on saying sorry until i say nvm..
he is a gentleman...
at first i thougth dat he is someone very bad..
nt gentleman, etc..
bt these days, i seem 2 be seeing him in another angle..
he is actually a gentleman who love his parents very much..
how i know?
i just know..
hahas...

2dae..
wad i wana tell u is..
try to see hings from different angles..
u may be surprised dat actually things aren't wad u think of..
n u may b nt as stressful as u did..

-just merely me-

so fun!!!

2008-05-19T03:31:00.000-07:00

2dae cip work so fun!!
it's very tiring..
bt very fun..
distributing the packs 2 e needy
really nice..
we still hav time to take pictures during brekas..
hehe.
u wana c e pics?
go 2 ms-faking.blogspot.com
i'm sure dat there r a lot of pics down there..

aft dat..
we meet up with vivian..
doing e chemical powered car thingy..
end up mei went home, vivian came 2 my house..
vivian complaint dat she hungry..
askd me 2 cook bee hoon 4 her..
c her so pathetic..
i cook lor..
then i give her medicine..
she had sorethroat..
when we finished..
she steal my bee hoon home..
she said for dinner..
then i leave it..
then..
she steal my psp home!
hikz..
so i wun hav psp 4 2 days..
sad siax..

dat's all 4 2dae..
actually there is sth inside my heart..
bt i dun wan 2 many ppl 2 noe it.. :p

-enjoyed commoner-

so long neva blogging again..

2008-05-18T06:58:00.001-07:00

these 1 week
very busy..
on monday, aft school i hav NCO training.
quite tough.. very tiring also..

on tue, we went to sentosa to see how is our tree growing..
to our dismay, 2 died, we're trying to make it alive again..
then we plucked out all e irritating grasses..

on wed, we have rehearsal for internationa frenship day on fri
e real date is 11 april, bt we celebrate it during post exam activities..

on thur, we hav rehearsal again. aft rehearsal, i suddenly rememer dat i hav javelin competition
so i hurriedly run to the field, luckily i could make it.

on fri, there our performance went..
it was a bit messy, bt they said dat it was ok.
aft schl, i hav red x..
training halfway the tcr askd us 2 do cip..
give out e pamphlets from block to block, house to house..
very tiring..

on sat, we have cip again..
very2 tiring..
aft cip, me n mei went to mcd house..
meet up with vivian to do chemical powered car research n design..
then mei's parents were coming to spore..
so i accompanied her to go n fetch her parents..
we went to hav dinner together..
i became miss my parents..
when i was on my way home, i kept on thinking, wad would my life like
if i hadnt come to spore to study?
i'm really curious..

2day, me n vivian went to jakeh's house..
it's damn far from e bus stop..
aft reach there, we went inside e room..
starting 2 do e powerpoint slides..
jakeh only cared about his computer memory card,
wei han cared about his mp3,
onli me n vivian were thinking..
aft sometime..
i felt very tired..
vivian do the rest..
jakeh n wei han busying with e computers..
then i decided 2 lie on jakeh's bed, to rest for a while..
i fell asleep.
really fell asleep..
then vivian come n wake me up..
"wake up! u so nice! can sleep, then i'm e one who do"
hahas..
i was really very tired..
i woke up
then
we went to clarke quay..
vivian n hernah said they wana ask about work..
reach there, e office was closed..
we didnt know dat 2 dae is public hol, so only open a while..
stupid erwin neva tell us..
hahas..

so tired siax..
i wana sleep liau..
nitex..

why am i so careless???

2008-05-14T07:48:00.000-07:00

i'm always very careless...
not only when i'm doing maths..
bt also in my life..
i always lost my things.
wallet, ez link, hp..
just name 1..
most slightly i had lost it be4..

nt only in losing valuables..
i'm also very carelez on my ownself..
i fell sick very easily..
i often hav gastric pain, jus becuz i didnt eat regularly..
3 days ago, i sprained my elbow..
e pain was excruciating!
2dae, i felt better, only a bit tired on e elbow..
bt... i sprained my ankle on e same day..
i fell down n sprained it.
i couldnt stand properly at 1st..
i couldnt even move it..
then slowly.
i tried 2 move it..
i turned it around n around..
aft a few minutes, i can walk..
bt at e end of e day..
i suddenly feel e pain again..
until now, e pain is still there.
in fact, i suspect dat it get worsen..

i cant even take good care of myself..
how am i goin 2 take care of other ppl??
i said dat i wana help ppl around me, bt now is e other way round..
am i uselez??
i dun wan my family 2 b worried bout me..
i wana show them dat i can take care of myself
so dat they dun worry..
bt i cant..
i'm really vey uselezz..
who in e world is as careless as me?
cant even take good care of him/herself??
i bet i'm the only one..
yes they are, bt they r children, nt a teenager like me..

^careless queen^

i met him again

2008-05-13T06:43:00.000-07:00

if i was not wrong.
i met him again.
can u guess who?
u must be thinking he is someone of my age.
u're wrong.

i met him for e 1st time was aft artsnight in our school.
i volunteered 2 become waitrez on dat day.
aft e artsnight, we went home.
we waited for 965 at e usual bus stop.
"anyody wants to go to e mrt station? hello... anybody?"
i was curious who was e one asking.
when i turned around, i saw 2 men.
i saw them, bt they didnt see me. in fact, they cant c everybody.
1 woman approached them, ask if they nid any help.
one of e man asked e woman if she was goin 2 e mrt station, his fren, wanted to go there.
dat woman lead him 2 e mrt station.
left him alone. he didnt ask for any more help.
i approached him.
"which bus are u taking?" i asked
"can u held me a taxi?"
of corz i said yes.
i found a taxi 4 him, aft saying thank you, he board e taxi n lead home.

i saw him again. in fact, i heard him before i saw him.
e same as e 1st time i met him.
e familiar voice.
i was on 965, i board e bus before him.
"good morning. going to yishun mrt station? thank you"
it was very crowded this morning.
no more seats left.
one girl, she gave out her seat to him
i was standing behind him.
when it reached khatib, i can feel that he was a bit worried.
worried dat he might miss e stops.
when it was 2 stops from his destination, he asked e ppl sitting around him
"is it yishun yet?" my fren who was sitting in fron of him, couldnt hear it properly.
i could hear it clearly, cuz i was observing him from e moment he sat on dat seat.
"2 more stops" i said.
"i'll inform u when it reached" i added
"thank u so much" he replied
when it reached, i told him.
he said thank u once again n alight e bus.

i admired his courage.
living in e darkness is sth very horrible.
yet he tried nt to b very reliant on ppl around him.
he will only ask for direction, bt he didnt ask ppl 2 lead him there.
he is very brave.
to b able 2 overcome e fear of walking alone nt knowing wad will happen next.
although he couldnt c, bt he didnt give his life up.
he atill live his life to e fullest.
i can sense it.

i had learnt sth from him, had u?
i hope he will b blessed with happinezz..
may God bless him always..

^Reni^

long time neva blogging...

2008-05-07T06:03:00.000-07:00

very long beva blogging alrd...
busying with exams lately n some other stuffs...
wait till i hav settled down..
i'll post blog everydae, k?
2dae, i went 2 e library 2 study a maths..
we went 2 houngang 1st be4 hand..
then we took bus no 72 to yio chu kang.
when alighting, i saw a granny..
she seemed 2 hav a lot of difficulties just to alight from e bus..
i went n help her..
she continuously say thnx 2 me n e other boy (i dunno him) who also came 2 help her..
yesterday, i give away my seat to a granny also.
one of my fren said that i'm a kindhearted girl..
am i?
i'm juz doing wad i ought to..
i believe dat wad goes around comes around..
if she had difficulties alighting, i believe i'll also hav it when i'm old..
i help her now, when i'm old later, there will also ppl 2 help me..

regards,
Reni

23.04.05

2008-04-23T05:25:00.000-07:00

tired.. juz recovered from unknown illnes.. i hav my gastric 2 days ago.. it's normal since i came here to study.. but this time round is quite different.. normally i'll feel better with a glass of warm water.. but 2 days ago, aft i felt my gastric, i went to drink a cup of warm mlio, but i felt like throwing out aft dat bt it juz didnt want to come out from my mouth.. it was awful.. i went to see a doctor.. he said nothing.. he prescribe me a medicine n ask me to eat sth bland.. i did feel better, at least my gastric is nt dat terrible.. bt i still feel sth inside there.. i dun noe wad is dat.. i juz noe dat i'm nt back 2 normal yet.. wadeva things i do now, walk, sit, eat, or anything, i'll feel sth inside there.. when i walk, i feel like fainting.. i couldnt even stand for too long.. i'll feel like vomitting if i did it.. i really feel very awful... someone help me..